haven't been blogging for a month. 
but am inspire to blog lately, and since i am waiting for the next class, might as well use the time to blog and think of what i am gonna to do for my projects. =)

i am pretty excited for school, i can't laze too long i realise, my brain gets starchy. 
trying to adapt to the school life. 
oh! i truly loves it so much! 
i love projects, more assignments! 
what challenges me most is still sewing. and its not easy. 

this week, its been an amazing week, not just school starts but more to see how my friends have been doing pretty well, and what's most important is to see people who are close to me are standing back to their feet.
what excites me most is everyone of us are being transform everyday by God. 
are u being thump lately? feel discourage? weary? imbalance? 
get connected to God once again! 
we know how it feels like to be losing focus, to get disconnected with God, and not trusting in God or dependent on God, we know how it feels like when things just dont get right without God. 

You know where is the right source, but do u want it back what truly yours?

this week just feel that something is just amiss. 
but everything seem alright. 
guess is just me. that feels mouldy? haha. yea. is not moody cos i am very sure i am not in the emotional haywire. 
perhaps is something that is not fulfilled?
constantly praying and praying and speaking to God, sticking to Him so dearly. (i am so sure thats not the reason that i feels mouldy too)
in fact, i kind of figure out. 
perhaps this week, my life is too much of a rountine. been working, staying at home.
i got to do something exciting and challenging, and haha. or i dont mind relaxing with friends. just relax. relax. 

i wanna to try some new stuff like laser quest? 
or paint ball? (but that is like super dangerous i know and its painful!) 
ok. 
what else can u think of that is exciting and challenging? 
i really cant think of. gotta prepare for work! 
update soon. 



to all: 
p/s: who YOU are makes a difference. so just be who u are. =)

on my way home, was reflecting upon the conversations i had with few friends.
ok. my mind is really slow in processing (thats a lie for sure!) =) 

out of nowhere, he said this, 
'stef, you are really blessed!' 

initially i am asking him, why you said this, he was clueless too. 
but think back. 
i am truly blessed. very blessed. 

God has bless me so much things that is unspeakable. 
seriously, 
my thoughts of blessing wasnt on the things that was provided and given or i had already had. 
those things will fade off one day. 
but i am still thankful for that. 

but i am so bless with the lil things that something is not even known to our own eyes. and thats what i am thankful about.
who cares about the things u had? 
if its gone one day, will u be blaming God? 

i am blessed with 
being love by people. 
having a group of members who truly loves God more than themselves. 
to be able to see so many of God creations, but i want to see MORE! =) 
to be able to communicate with God and to be love by Him truly. 

grown up, cares and concern and love matters more to me now than luxuery livings 

who knows what will happen next? =) 

i am in fact wondering what to post, dont mind of my poor english sentence structure. 
i am really trying my very VERY BEST to be as accurate as can be. 
language is just not my forte. but is a miracle i can pass my english yea?! 

so, so many things to post. but i have to post this. SO SO SO INSPIRE by my senior grads show.
but thats not the point. these past few days, i had been thinking what would be the next trend coming up. 
mmmm, and i am looking into where my potential lies at. 
a trendsetter? a textile designer? a stylist? a mag journalist? a fashion designer? a fashion photographer? 
a huge range of scope to look in. 
but mainly my interest lies in being a trendsetter, a stylist, a designer and a photographer. 
yea. not to much in being a fashion coordinator. 

so. this season fall/autumn, look forwards to more HEARTS! =)
as seen in comme des garcons, where fashion revolutionary Rei Kawakubo gave the sentimental symbol of quirky edge.

yea. but i believe, u dont have to be too much into the hearts thing. i think a mixture of both will be a nice match perhaps? with stars and hearts =) 

but, thats not the purpose of my post. since trends of 2008 fall is already set. no point guessing whats the trend. 

this is what i predict that will come out in 2009: 
1) NAUTICAL?
yea. perhaps is out once already. but fashion always comes and goes around. 
2) VICTORIAN?
3) ROCOCO?
4) 20s? 
5) ART DECO?
6) 60s MOD? 
7) NATURE
8) PIN UP GIRLS LOOK

ha. these are my guess. i am not sure how many of this will comeback. but i know all will have a comeback. let me think more to describe the right word to add on. and i will put it out. =) 

anyway, i had a fun time today. =) really.

yes, suffering from a high fever, stomach flu is never easy going for all of us. 
and it struck me on that fateful day. 
thank God for lovely people who pray for me, i have no energy in fact to msg everyone so i am really sorry for u not being informed. 
i am alright now, just that my stomach feels pretty weird. not able to consume good food =( 

thank God that i been through it. to think about it, i told God, never never to even think about being fall sick, cos it is just so terrible to go through all this. plus if God created me strong why put a curse upon urself? 

so, never never will i allow myself to fall sick! =) 

its the tuesday blue. weather extremely hot. desert hot. 
i cant stand the heat! 
i remember elijah prayer. and i prayed for rain but guess i have not put in enough effort to really pray for rain. i will persist to pray for rain till it rain! amen! wahahaha! 

cousin place. wondering what title to actually place and this title kinda laugh me out. 
my canada cousin just came back and therefore have this sudden family gathering. 
pretty last min, and dad ask me that i got to go, cant miss anymore. so yea. i am here. 
thanks to jasper who is nice to take over me. =) and the many things u have done. 
wahahaha! 

forget the blues. 
there are many nice things happening last week. 
great! 
i enjoy the accompany, the cam-whoring and everything nice.

esp the good fun, funny entertainer (not me), cam-whoring, tall chairs, everything nice, perky and sweet~~ i wanna to go again.

*u know what i meant* =) 

gotta to plan this week, i got to allow this week be as fulfilling as last week. i got to let God take charge. 
i got to do more of my loves. i got to spend my time well! 
LOVE LIFE! LOVE IT! I LOVE MY LIFE! 
seriously, nothing matters to me as much as how God see me, i dont really care how people see me as or neither do i want to compromise to something that does not stand by my principles. 
i got to spend time reflecting on my principles too. i got to spend time thinking. not just doing. so. tts all about it. 

next post. let the pictures do the talk, let the fun cheers u up! 

so whose talking the talk? 
i let u do the talk. 

=) 
cheeriors! 

anw. it make me miss my favorite cereal. APPLE JACKS! what a 80s cereal. =)

a very short post. 

have u ever wonder the things u have been doing, what are u doing for? 
perhaps somethings that we do, dont have or a needed for a reason. 
nor a reason that is formulated to look good on the outside. and rotten on the inside 

for me, 

what matters is the heart. 
its simple yet people find its complexity in following it. 
how weird isnt it? 

tts how weird we humans made tend to make ourselves to be, when God just created us to be simple in the inside.

how wonderful to really know that i have a God who loves me more than what man can do. 
really. 
training is really good. not just of a deeper understanding in around us and the word. but more than that. 

an ENCOUNTER WITH GOD. 

He speak to me so much today. and i am already seeing 2-3 things coming to pass after i prayed. 
so tell me how can it be that my God is not real? 

i want to pray more. more than i can offer. =) 
to be david, deep calls to deep. 
how encouraging. 
the word is amazing. truly. it means so much den just words. its the substance. the message. 
it more than just mediating book. mediating book only physco u to think as if problems are not there.
it will resurface itself if u stop meditating. 

but, but, but, 

the word is different. 
it speaks life to a person heart. it speaks conviction. it speak obedience, it takes u to die to ur pride, it speaks REAL changes, it speak U GOT TO DEAL IT. not urself alone. with God! 

look back. i really thank God for Him to choose me. 
what would happen of me if i do not receive Him? 
what would happen of me if i choose not to rely on Him? 

i do not want to be selective in my obedience. 

random things i learn through 'what guys see that girls dont'
it applies to all people =)

1) whatever you are willing to compromise, you will eventually lose it. 
compromise is a concession to something derogatory where someone concedes and they accept what they are told is true, valid or accurate. once u compromise to it, its difficult to stop. 

2) Flattery is different than a compliment in that a compliment has no ulterior motivem except to esteem and encourage another person. Flattery esteems and praises another person for personal benefit. 

3) 1 sam 15: 23
Rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubborness is as iniquity and idolatry. 
witchcraft seeks to control, a rebellion person does what she wants instead of what God wants in her life. she wants to control her life. God say that stubborness to His will is sin and idolatry. idolarty is putting anything before God. when we put our will before God will, we make our will an idol. 
-> this is one that hits me the most. 

ok. i shared till here. more to share. next post. =) nights