haven't been blogging for a month. 
but am inspire to blog lately, and since i am waiting for the next class, might as well use the time to blog and think of what i am gonna to do for my projects. =)

i am pretty excited for school, i can't laze too long i realise, my brain gets starchy. 
trying to adapt to the school life. 
oh! i truly loves it so much! 
i love projects, more assignments! 
what challenges me most is still sewing. and its not easy. 

this week, its been an amazing week, not just school starts but more to see how my friends have been doing pretty well, and what's most important is to see people who are close to me are standing back to their feet.
what excites me most is everyone of us are being transform everyday by God. 
are u being thump lately? feel discourage? weary? imbalance? 
get connected to God once again! 
we know how it feels like to be losing focus, to get disconnected with God, and not trusting in God or dependent on God, we know how it feels like when things just dont get right without God. 

You know where is the right source, but do u want it back what truly yours?

this week just feel that something is just amiss. 
but everything seem alright. 
guess is just me. that feels mouldy? haha. yea. is not moody cos i am very sure i am not in the emotional haywire. 
perhaps is something that is not fulfilled?
constantly praying and praying and speaking to God, sticking to Him so dearly. (i am so sure thats not the reason that i feels mouldy too)
in fact, i kind of figure out. 
perhaps this week, my life is too much of a rountine. been working, staying at home.
i got to do something exciting and challenging, and haha. or i dont mind relaxing with friends. just relax. relax. 

i wanna to try some new stuff like laser quest? 
or paint ball? (but that is like super dangerous i know and its painful!) 
ok. 
what else can u think of that is exciting and challenging? 
i really cant think of. gotta prepare for work! 
update soon. 



to all: 
p/s: who YOU are makes a difference. so just be who u are. =)

on my way home, was reflecting upon the conversations i had with few friends.
ok. my mind is really slow in processing (thats a lie for sure!) =) 

out of nowhere, he said this, 
'stef, you are really blessed!' 

initially i am asking him, why you said this, he was clueless too. 
but think back. 
i am truly blessed. very blessed. 

God has bless me so much things that is unspeakable. 
seriously, 
my thoughts of blessing wasnt on the things that was provided and given or i had already had. 
those things will fade off one day. 
but i am still thankful for that. 

but i am so bless with the lil things that something is not even known to our own eyes. and thats what i am thankful about.
who cares about the things u had? 
if its gone one day, will u be blaming God? 

i am blessed with 
being love by people. 
having a group of members who truly loves God more than themselves. 
to be able to see so many of God creations, but i want to see MORE! =) 
to be able to communicate with God and to be love by Him truly. 

grown up, cares and concern and love matters more to me now than luxuery livings 

who knows what will happen next? =) 

i am in fact wondering what to post, dont mind of my poor english sentence structure. 
i am really trying my very VERY BEST to be as accurate as can be. 
language is just not my forte. but is a miracle i can pass my english yea?! 

so, so many things to post. but i have to post this. SO SO SO INSPIRE by my senior grads show.
but thats not the point. these past few days, i had been thinking what would be the next trend coming up. 
mmmm, and i am looking into where my potential lies at. 
a trendsetter? a textile designer? a stylist? a mag journalist? a fashion designer? a fashion photographer? 
a huge range of scope to look in. 
but mainly my interest lies in being a trendsetter, a stylist, a designer and a photographer. 
yea. not to much in being a fashion coordinator. 

so. this season fall/autumn, look forwards to more HEARTS! =)
as seen in comme des garcons, where fashion revolutionary Rei Kawakubo gave the sentimental symbol of quirky edge.

yea. but i believe, u dont have to be too much into the hearts thing. i think a mixture of both will be a nice match perhaps? with stars and hearts =) 

but, thats not the purpose of my post. since trends of 2008 fall is already set. no point guessing whats the trend. 

this is what i predict that will come out in 2009: 
1) NAUTICAL?
yea. perhaps is out once already. but fashion always comes and goes around. 
2) VICTORIAN?
3) ROCOCO?
4) 20s? 
5) ART DECO?
6) 60s MOD? 
7) NATURE
8) PIN UP GIRLS LOOK

ha. these are my guess. i am not sure how many of this will comeback. but i know all will have a comeback. let me think more to describe the right word to add on. and i will put it out. =) 

anyway, i had a fun time today. =) really.

yes, suffering from a high fever, stomach flu is never easy going for all of us. 
and it struck me on that fateful day. 
thank God for lovely people who pray for me, i have no energy in fact to msg everyone so i am really sorry for u not being informed. 
i am alright now, just that my stomach feels pretty weird. not able to consume good food =( 

thank God that i been through it. to think about it, i told God, never never to even think about being fall sick, cos it is just so terrible to go through all this. plus if God created me strong why put a curse upon urself? 

so, never never will i allow myself to fall sick! =) 

its the tuesday blue. weather extremely hot. desert hot. 
i cant stand the heat! 
i remember elijah prayer. and i prayed for rain but guess i have not put in enough effort to really pray for rain. i will persist to pray for rain till it rain! amen! wahahaha! 

cousin place. wondering what title to actually place and this title kinda laugh me out. 
my canada cousin just came back and therefore have this sudden family gathering. 
pretty last min, and dad ask me that i got to go, cant miss anymore. so yea. i am here. 
thanks to jasper who is nice to take over me. =) and the many things u have done. 
wahahaha! 

forget the blues. 
there are many nice things happening last week. 
great! 
i enjoy the accompany, the cam-whoring and everything nice.

esp the good fun, funny entertainer (not me), cam-whoring, tall chairs, everything nice, perky and sweet~~ i wanna to go again.

*u know what i meant* =) 

gotta to plan this week, i got to allow this week be as fulfilling as last week. i got to let God take charge. 
i got to do more of my loves. i got to spend my time well! 
LOVE LIFE! LOVE IT! I LOVE MY LIFE! 
seriously, nothing matters to me as much as how God see me, i dont really care how people see me as or neither do i want to compromise to something that does not stand by my principles. 
i got to spend time reflecting on my principles too. i got to spend time thinking. not just doing. so. tts all about it. 

next post. let the pictures do the talk, let the fun cheers u up! 

so whose talking the talk? 
i let u do the talk. 

=) 
cheeriors! 

anw. it make me miss my favorite cereal. APPLE JACKS! what a 80s cereal. =)

a very short post. 

have u ever wonder the things u have been doing, what are u doing for? 
perhaps somethings that we do, dont have or a needed for a reason. 
nor a reason that is formulated to look good on the outside. and rotten on the inside 

for me, 

what matters is the heart. 
its simple yet people find its complexity in following it. 
how weird isnt it? 

tts how weird we humans made tend to make ourselves to be, when God just created us to be simple in the inside.

how wonderful to really know that i have a God who loves me more than what man can do. 
really. 
training is really good. not just of a deeper understanding in around us and the word. but more than that. 

an ENCOUNTER WITH GOD. 

He speak to me so much today. and i am already seeing 2-3 things coming to pass after i prayed. 
so tell me how can it be that my God is not real? 

i want to pray more. more than i can offer. =) 
to be david, deep calls to deep. 
how encouraging. 
the word is amazing. truly. it means so much den just words. its the substance. the message. 
it more than just mediating book. mediating book only physco u to think as if problems are not there.
it will resurface itself if u stop meditating. 

but, but, but, 

the word is different. 
it speaks life to a person heart. it speaks conviction. it speak obedience, it takes u to die to ur pride, it speaks REAL changes, it speak U GOT TO DEAL IT. not urself alone. with God! 

look back. i really thank God for Him to choose me. 
what would happen of me if i do not receive Him? 
what would happen of me if i choose not to rely on Him? 

i do not want to be selective in my obedience. 

random things i learn through 'what guys see that girls dont'
it applies to all people =)

1) whatever you are willing to compromise, you will eventually lose it. 
compromise is a concession to something derogatory where someone concedes and they accept what they are told is true, valid or accurate. once u compromise to it, its difficult to stop. 

2) Flattery is different than a compliment in that a compliment has no ulterior motivem except to esteem and encourage another person. Flattery esteems and praises another person for personal benefit. 

3) 1 sam 15: 23
Rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubborness is as iniquity and idolatry. 
witchcraft seeks to control, a rebellion person does what she wants instead of what God wants in her life. she wants to control her life. God say that stubborness to His will is sin and idolatry. idolarty is putting anything before God. when we put our will before God will, we make our will an idol. 
-> this is one that hits me the most. 

ok. i shared till here. more to share. next post. =) nights

ok. i can never stop laughing at this photo. its way too funny and really entertaining.

the smile of jackee reminds me of kfc advertisment. he is quite a good choice for that ad in fact IF he is chosen. obviously he is not. 



the marvin that always say not nice here and there. and kenneth hand. 

tts all for the moment. 

i deserve a good holiday. *pat shoulder* =)

 considering it shld be a very bad day for me, but it turn out good! all in the mind for u to see how u look at. 
and why?

have u ever encounter, losing something that u needed it so urgently and it cant be found even u whack upside down the house and still u cant find it?

it happened to me, just before my assessement. 
and the thing is, the phone was with me awhile ago and its gone just before leaving the house. 
i search, with my lovely mum for 20 mins and i decided to just leave it at home and deal with it later. 
at the same time, i am worry the amount of people that is going to contact me and for me to contact as well. 
its a totally nerve wreacking experience seriously, the heavy bag to be brought along, the words to say, the more touch up needed to be done is giving me a serious headache and almost a breakdown. 

i hate assessment, but i love exams. whats the diff  u might be asking.

i simply love to be challenge what i had self learn. but this is not, this is what u have done. 
back to the topic. yes. though i am quite mad at myself initially, i decided to put it aside and concentrate, thats just a distraction. 
but to concentrate not on the distraction. i decided to put God first, so i did my quiet time though it seem like i shld concentrate on my work first. 

i can never emphasize enough that we shld place God first in everything, that where everything falls into place. while i am rushing here and there. there is this verse that say THE PEACE OF GOD WHICH TRANSPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING WILL GUIDE YOUR HEART AND MIND IN CHRIST JESUS.

is through this verse that i know i am able to go through this smoothly. though, my faith is still small. 
i realise, my faith isnt as big as it is that i know, only when i go through the toughest of my life that i know how big my faith is.
and thank God, i SURVIVED and place my faith in Him! 

i really donnoe how the outcome maybe, but i will trust in Him and know He will deliever me through this. 
unafraid. 

and to say, i found my phone when i reach home. errrs. but still i think is a good experience to be away from my phone this time, cos it makes me rely on God every moment during this period. imagine if i have my phone with me, i would be keeping msging others and not using the time to pray! 

p/s: i wanna to say love all who is around me.  beside God as a pillar of stength, u are my encourager too!
good night. =) 
i am going to mask my face and sleep. waahaha! at last. 

though i still feel a lil weird. now, now, now, i misses school so much. haha.

yes. singapore is small. but hongkong is smaller right. den why!
why! karl langerfied u chose there instead of here!!!! 
but is alright,it gives me reasons to travel now and purpose fulfilled to do so. but con, to save more money. =( 




the chanel mobile art container. yes. how awesome is it! =) 
is not just exhibiting chanel stuf but various artist work.
like there is french artist, america artist, japen, india , korean, russia. i believe there is much more. 

did i say i want to go to hongkong?

currently the exhibition is in hongkong. 
but my love is not there. wahahaha! 

u know what, facts, this exhibition will be held at 5 different places other den hongkong and this exhibition is till 2010. 
the places are.... ahahaha! 

-japan
-new york
-london, 
-los angeles
-moscow 
-paris

wahahaha! goodness! 

I WANT TO GO TO japan. but the exhibition is from may till july but.....money is the thing. 
u got to buy tickets to enter this exhibition and i don think is really cheap. 

but if i cant go japan, den i might consider new york or london or paris. hahaha. and if the ticket is as expensive as the fashion show den i might consider again..

from here. i needa to find an artist tt inspire and love. =) who shall it be? i blog more.

quite a number of my classmates are leaving this course. and i really wonder why,

they did better den like anyone else, but whats the thing that makes them wanna to leave.

stress? pressure? all trades definitely have.

but. still.

i am gonna to miss them. and tells me to strive on.

thank God, i never had such thoughts of leavings but deeper drive to do it well!

and....

assessment is in  2 weeks.

so much work to be done.

dearest vik lim, please don ask me redraw again. so delayed because of this.

two hectic and tiring days. but really thank God still to be in control this week. 
stayed in school till late to finish my sewing. still more sewing to go. and i am gonna to sew my personal blouse now! =) 
God, i pray my assignment will glorify every bits of u! 
firstly, cos i cant imagine myself sewing a toile, a blouse not meant for wearing within 4-5 hrs. 
is not easy to sew, unless u are really good. cos is mind, eye, energy straining. i am all restless now. 

and really thank God to let me know more about my classmates. haha and so other schoolmates, which i find it pretty interesting. i had never interact with someone in the school beside my class and i got to know this person interesting background. 
God, i pray that U draw Jac to you! 

i need interesting food to eat. 
and gotta to do MORE drawings. 
God, i pray for more energy, ideas and ability to draw whats in my mind accurately! 

Are you easily sway by things around u? 
one thing i can never understand about us as humans is we tend to allow burdens change who we shld really are.i said burdens cos people tend to change the way they think  faster and negatively easily when bad things strike in, these bad things arent from God, it is always harder to get out. the thoughts they had is just not beneficial to them and in the end, they got to deal it out themselves again.

trials are suppose to make us stronger and change us to be more christ-like, bulid us as christian of character or rather a person of character, but how many times do we really allow such a good opportunity to change us? and to know it is a slow process too. cos is just like a diamond rock to becoming a polished diamond. 

THERE IS NO EASY WAY OUT. 

and 

to all christians: do things in God way, God perspective, God thinking. 
no longer yourself.

yes. a long long very long extremely long title that u can just shorted it as i enjoyed with my friends today

lots of ridiculous things i did, not really ridiculous but i spend too much on eating today. 
but still is not the cash, but whether i enjoyed myself with my friends. 
like shopping, exploring, and eating. 
haha. 
i ate goooood foooooood today. 
but still is not about the good food, but whether i enjoyed with my friends. 



and i enjoyed myself. 
=)

and i believe u enjoyed urself too!